Ah man, to much drama is never good :< Losing those closest is harsh, I've gone through that within the last year myself. Friends parting ways as we grow up, to the worst case of losing my best friend in a car accident. The feeling is unreal, knowing someone who was always there is gone. I don't think you can ever just 'move on', but instead you have to live on with the good memories in your heart.
Whatever it is you're dealing with, I will gladly lend you and ear and do what I can for you, seeing as you are a friend I'd not want to get hurt.