Yeah... did kinda sound hell bent
But, I know the exact pain you are going through, I went through it last year, and decided to just do something about it... It's surprisingly easy to get out of it, all you need to do is just, open yourself to the world a little more, make a joke here and there, be kinder, and don't try to pull off the 'i don't care look' (That's what I did, not a good idea.)
And thanks. (Sat thing)