You've done nothing wrong. To be perfectly honest, I find people like you far more refreshing than most people I meet (including people from my own religion). They could care less about whether what they think is true or not, and they don't care to even learn everything about what they themselves believe in. I may not know everything (nor will I ever), but at least I'm making the effort to learn as much as I can about my own belief system. Though you claim that chasing the truth is a wild goose chase, you still have an interest in it. That alone is saying something.