I just finish highschool lately and I'm happy that dreadful story in my life is finally over. Sure there will be some memories I'd love to keep but for now is all about having fun in this summer vacation! My bigger problem right now is what happenes next. I don't know what should I do after all these years in school. I know that in Israel after you finish highschool you have to either join the IDF army (Israeli Defense Forces) or do commuinity serves. My problem is deciding which one should I do? Everyone is joining the IDF because they protecting us all the time from our enemies and its time to repay back. I however don't want to join the army. I want to volunteer. Doing something good for others and feel delightful that I have did something good today! But in the same time I feel disrespectful for the army. Thoes soldiers risk their life for us while we sit home without knowing their being injured or worse! That's why I'm seeking help here. So will somebody help me with this undecidefulness in my heart? It's ripping me apart :[