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Ok, I'm not depressed.....but I'm afraid I'm moving in that direction. I've got goals I wanna reach, but I'm having problems actually trying because I know my parents wouldn't like what I wanna do. And if I'm honest, I don't even feel like I'd be anything special at what I wanna do because I really don't like myself. Like I can't see myself in that field. It's hard to admit, but I'm beginning to accept it for what it is. I don't wanna end up depressed or anything, but I can't just 'like' myself either....I suppose I do love myself, but I'd rather not live with myself. Confusing....yeah, which is why I can't just find the problem and fix it like normal. I'm not about to hurt myself because
1. I fail to see how cutting your wrists makes you feel any better.
2. I'm afraid of Hell, and committing suicide sends you straight there. =/
So I'm not truly lost or anything. I just.....can't get through the day because I forever have to live with the one person I hate above all others. Seems corny, which is probably why I've avoided confronting it......but it's the most frustrating thing I've ever dealt with (or tried to deal with anyways).
1. I fail to see how cutting your wrists makes you feel any better.
2. I'm afraid of Hell, and committing suicide sends you straight there. =/
So I'm not truly lost or anything. I just.....can't get through the day because I forever have to live with the one person I hate above all others. Seems corny, which is probably why I've avoided confronting it......but it's the most frustrating thing I've ever dealt with (or tried to deal with anyways).