When Saix joined the organization, he started a diary. Everyone found out and started making fun of him, so he thought: I must convert someone to the Diary Side. However, no one listened to him, so he started waiting for his only other friend that he had ever known. That Ven boy... He thought to himself. If his nobody ever joins, he'll be the one!
By that time, however, everyone had been converted to the Diary Side. But this was not the same as Saix had wanted. These were not the same as the diary that Saix had so lovingly filled with his innermost thoughts and feelings. No, these "diaries" were simply reports to be handed in to the superior. Such a mockery of the sacred Ways of the Diary are reprehensible! Saix thought. Or would have thought, had he not been 'norted by that point.
This is totally canon, what're you talking about?