Oh no-- not my closest friend! This cannot be happening. Tell me it's the end of the world, I won't care; snow comes first! *rushes around frantically, completely lost as to where to start*
Okay okay... *breathes in and out*
So, it's back. The depression as well as the food problem. How absolutely dreadful. We need to get these horrible feelings out of your system, snow! Now let me call this great exorcist I-- um, on the other hand, let's save that for later.
Alright, enough with the jokes. In all serious, you need to be cheerful, snow. I know this sounds corny, but there's a church song I know in which deals with people feeling down. Kinda... sorta', yeah. Well, part of the lyrics are as follows:
"Count your many blessings name them one by one, you will be surprised for what the Lord has done."
I know, I know, it's religious. But honestly, if you think about the lyrics, you'll understand what I mean. Though our lives may be dark and depressing, dragging you down to the depths of hell, there's always a shimmering light of hope waiting to be kindled. That hope is something that you are grateful for.
Look over your life. Not your entire life, of course; maybe the past few weeks or days. Surely throughout those days something fantastic or great happened to you, making you smile? Maybe just recently you found a large lollipop on the road, still covered in plastic wrapping--how lucky indeed! What I'm (pointlessly?) getting at here is that, to get yourself off these negative feelings, you should think about things that have made you feel good or "blessed" you, if you want to put it that way.
Whenever you come across a depressive thought--QUICK! Change your mind to something that made you feel good. Remembah' that Rush concert you went to? How awesome Geddy Lee sung? Now there's a thought.
As some others have said, music can help as well. Whenever I'm feeling down, I usually whip out my old iPod Nano and blast an upbeat Muse song. Somehow it makes me feel better. So, listen to lotsa' music. =D
This sadness you are experiencing, it has to have an origin. You have to pinpoint and completely eliminate that starting point. It may take some time for you to realize what you're sad about, but once you know, be sure to get rid of it. It may not be easy, (who said everything's easy in life?), but I know that a wonderful person such as yourself can overcome it.
Also, you have a boyfriend. He's there to care for you when you most need it. I'd say right now is a good time. If you try to tell him and he won't listen, do whatever's necessary to get him to listen. Cry and pound on his chest, scream and shout, just get his attention! Nothing's better than having someone to be close to in times of need.
Now, the food problem... This comes with the whole Depression Package. By eliminating the depression altogether, you will consequently destroy the food problem. A loss of appetite is common among those who just don't feel right. But, I being my concerned self, make sure you're eating enough! Make yourself eat something if you have to; it's safer than not eating at all.
Sorry for the massive post, Snow... I just want to let you know that I care for ya' and want you to lead a happy life. I know you can get better. You're a lovely, optimistic person who brings a ray of sunshine to the world. Push onward in confidence! You can do it!
With much luff,
~Dee
