This is a sort of thing that bugs me on and off, but this time, it's gotten horrible. ;___; Like I've gotten depressed for the past few nights because of this. I have barely any friends (the ONLY bad thing about homeschooling; trust me My friends in public school were horrible.) and my two bestest friends, and only real friends, are barely online. So, last few nights when I think they're going to get on, I get depressed. I'm trying to talk to other people, but I'm horrified of doing that.
I'm going to see a therapist sort of doctor person for anxiety problems/panic attacks. She gave me a book about dealing with anxiety and I've figured out that I've got a social phobia. I believe that everybody thinks I'm weird and, the biggest hurtle, that I'm annoying.
I have to make friends online for now, but I'm terrified about talking to people, especially when I believe I'm an annoying, obnoxious person. However, when I do talk to people, I barely talk. I'm also good at intelligent conversation, so calling myself annoying sorta-kinda doesn't make any sense, since I'm not specifically annoying when I'm talking in a conversation.
So, my question is this: how do I get myself to believe that I'm not as annoying (and, possibly, weird) as I think am? If that hurtle is out of the way, then it may be easier to talk to people. Also, does anyone know how I could talk to people (specifically online) without getting so anxious and panicky?
Oh, and I bet I'm going to get "Why don't you go outside and make some real friends? " which is VERY hard to do right now, so friends online'll have to work for now. I'm going to college soon and I'm trying to get a job, so please don't say anything about trying to make 'real' friends. I'll have to work on that in a bit, but this'll have to do for now 8D;
Thank you, thank you if you comment! I greatly appreciate it! :]
I'm going to see a therapist sort of doctor person for anxiety problems/panic attacks. She gave me a book about dealing with anxiety and I've figured out that I've got a social phobia. I believe that everybody thinks I'm weird and, the biggest hurtle, that I'm annoying.
I have to make friends online for now, but I'm terrified about talking to people, especially when I believe I'm an annoying, obnoxious person. However, when I do talk to people, I barely talk. I'm also good at intelligent conversation, so calling myself annoying sorta-kinda doesn't make any sense, since I'm not specifically annoying when I'm talking in a conversation.
So, my question is this: how do I get myself to believe that I'm not as annoying (and, possibly, weird) as I think am? If that hurtle is out of the way, then it may be easier to talk to people. Also, does anyone know how I could talk to people (specifically online) without getting so anxious and panicky?
Oh, and I bet I'm going to get "Why don't you go outside and make some real friends? " which is VERY hard to do right now, so friends online'll have to work for now. I'm going to college soon and I'm trying to get a job, so please don't say anything about trying to make 'real' friends. I'll have to work on that in a bit, but this'll have to do for now 8D;
Thank you, thank you if you comment! I greatly appreciate it! :]