it's a stupid test. human beings were not created for such...gennie pig reasons. we were not like programmed to be able to survive the harsher tests he gives us. so ultimatly, he is setting us up for nothing.
however, now i am starting to lose faith because lately, ....i've been trying to contact the devil....and he still has not come. so does that mean that he does not exist, and if so, then does that mean that there is like no God either.
true, i once was able to speak with him...this lasted almost a full month. we would communicate through dreams...but one day...he just disapeared. and ever since that day, i've been....followed.
has anybody ever heard of shadow people? they come usually in the form of shadow, and are known as the devil's dogs. some people think that they can like possess others and stuff. so like after i lost contact, i met three of these...shadows. and they spoke to me, but i can not remember exactly what they said. i remember very clearly, their height, the shade of their eyes...a bright, blood red. i can remember the tempuature of the room, the shaking of my heart and the lack and scratchy voice that was caught in my throat. i remember hiding a good majority of my body underneath my blankets and the rest of it was chilled. i remember each goosebump crawling up my arm, then disapearing, because as soon as one made eyes contact, everything grew warm and comforting. it was nice...a kind experience on my part. i know i made a deal, i just do not know what it was.
since then, i have been followed by things. scary things. the scariest when i woke up to find a corpse like ghost in my bed. and then they started coming in my dreams and haunting my sleep. i will not go anywhere alone anymore and i am glad that i have gotten out of that house( we moved recentyly) however, i am not sure what is to come sooner or later.
i asked god to make them all leave me alone and it seemed to work for a while. however, it was after i was left alone that i started getting depressed and upset again, leading me to here.
i'm scared and that's clear when one really knows me. however, people think i am crazy because i tell them these things, and that is why i confide in this forum...because here, i can just ignore any rude comments and move on with my normal life.
a mask is what i wear...a mask is what we wear. us angels who are provoked by demons who want what? what could they possibly want from us???
i leave you with this thought for now, and hope to speak to you soon.
this forum is now open for anybody who wishes to confide....venom is a great helper and i hope to be as well. also, if you are like us, don't feel afraid to say so, this is an angel's sanctuary.
hmmm....this is yet again another double post. sorry.
i'd like to discuss more upon what exactly us fallen angels are and what our essential purpose is.
i've been reading up, and it turns out that it was Lucifer who was called the fallen angel and Satan who is the devil. they are two seperate people. but what did they do to merit their way to punishment on earth? accroding to this section i am reading, hell is contained within heaven, so how is hell a punsihment? and where is heaven? it can't be in the sky because there are too many satelights, and they would have found it already. so is it in the north pole??? or like in another dimension? there are reports of people going through caves and stumbling into another vortex...but back to the whole angel thing.
according to the other peoples...fallen angels are sent to earth under they recieve their punishment, which is to be sent to hell. "fallen angels will roam the Earth until Judgment Day, when they will be banished to Hell" why is it that so?
if satan betrayed god, then why hasn't God forgiven him yet. doesn't he like forgive everybody? and if we are 'fallen angel's, then what have we done to merit ourselves to be stuck here?
i had a lot more to say, i just kind of forgot. sorries
