2. Smoking, heavy drinking, not going to bed, not responding to messages from family or friends for painfully awkward amounts of time ?I?m guilty of all.
I do think that you?re right in making sure you get out, it probably does safeguard against cabin fever. Because I spent a lot of time out, I romanticize staying in, particularly that aspect of spending time with yourself in an introspective haze, which oddly enough, is something that Drake?s music often articulates well.
I think it?s a myth that people gain more from going out and experiencing the ?real world? than staying within the 4 walls of your room doing so-called ?pointless shit?. How useful the time we spend doing x,y or z isn?t something that can be easily quantified, so I resent discourses like ?playing video games/posting on forums/watching anime is for losers etc?. Not that that was implied by what you said, btw.
I quite sincerely feel that it?s really problematic when people conceptualize their lives as a line of progress. Okay, you might be more worldly, disciplined, socially comfortable, have a bunch of achievements under your belt, whatever, than you were when you were a 15 year old. On the other hand, you can never doubt the integrity of who you were, even if you were a complete douche, a chronic masturbator, you should always appreciate the sacredness of that self. Like when Drake is like ?I wanna take it back to when I was that kid in the basement? (or not, lol).
If you ever get a chance to read Adorno?s Negative Dialectics, then I strongly recommend it. I wont go into detail - mainly because I?m embarrassed at the pretentiousness of slipping Adorno into a casual conversation ? but he has some (I think) profound thoughts on this?not explicitly, because he?d never stoop to such an individualistic level, but more so in terms of why the sum of existence cannot be that which progresses forward.
Nonetheless, go for gold. I?m sure you?ll do great. Praying is important.