… And I actually want to cry.
It's been 4 months. Wow… this feels really strange. I thought I'd react differently because I knew she'd die sooner or later but I am actually really f*cking sad.
The doctors/my mom didn't allow me to see her. She said she wants me to remember my grandma how she was, not how she looks now. It really makes me feel angry and sad. I want to KNOW how she has changed.
My brother said I wouldn't even recognize her. And now I'm just waiting here, typing this while my mom is telling my aunt and my uncle about the news.....
I feel horrible. We haven't told my grandpa yet, since he is sleeping and I am really scared about his reaction.
Thanks to anybody who has read through this. I just had to get this off my chest.
It's been 4 months. Wow… this feels really strange. I thought I'd react differently because I knew she'd die sooner or later but I am actually really f*cking sad.
The doctors/my mom didn't allow me to see her. She said she wants me to remember my grandma how she was, not how she looks now. It really makes me feel angry and sad. I want to KNOW how she has changed.
My brother said I wouldn't even recognize her. And now I'm just waiting here, typing this while my mom is telling my aunt and my uncle about the news.....
I feel horrible. We haven't told my grandpa yet, since he is sleeping and I am really scared about his reaction.
Thanks to anybody who has read through this. I just had to get this off my chest.