Mmkay, I need some help. Or some hugs. Whichever you prefer. It's not something that I'm crying over... often, but I would like some help on it. :\ And, no. I'm not depressed, emo, angsty, or want to hurt myself. I'm a kid who acts like a boy, wears all black all the time, watches Disney movies on a regular basis, and has lots and lots of plushies. ...Okay, glad we got that cleared up.
Since I was little, though I can't remember it too well, people have hated me. For... no good reason. In elementary school, in middle school, people have hated me for no good reason. I hang out with video game loving boys cause all the girls are preppy and look at me weird? Well, the boys hate me cause I have no friends and hang out with them. I'm talking to you? Oh, you have to hate me now. I'm walking around in a circle? You have to hate me right here and now. What have I ever done? Do I look weird, am I a nerd or a dork because I have a 4.0 GPA, does my breath smell funny, do I wear too much black yet love Disney and that's going to be a problem for you? Eh, I dunno.
My problem right now is not in real life. I don't go to public school. I'm homeschooled. It's, actually, online. On a certain section in a certain forum on a certain site... people hate me because I'm, obviously, a hyper, obnoxious little brat who doesn't deserve to be a mod. But, that's it: I obviously don't deserve to be a mod because I'm hyper and put my age at '6' and refuse to change it because it's unique and I don't want to grow up, yet I care more about that forum more than I can put into words. But, that's not the point.
Here's my problem: people hate me either being hyper or for making mistakes because I was new and hadn't had a big responsibility like this before when I first became mod, but most likely the former. I just want people to understand me a little bit before so I can help them out so that they can have fun. I can't do that without someone throwing out an opinion and everybody suddenly saying "ZOMG RENA YOU SUCK". So, how do I get people to understand me a bit better so I can help them... have fun? I would like them to understand me, a lot better than they do right now. They don't even know me, and they judge me by that little number that says '6' as my age; and, FYI... I won't be changing that number anytime soon. *likes the low age* :d
...Help? Please? I would REALLY like to end my weekly sessions of crying now. :\
Since I was little, though I can't remember it too well, people have hated me. For... no good reason. In elementary school, in middle school, people have hated me for no good reason. I hang out with video game loving boys cause all the girls are preppy and look at me weird? Well, the boys hate me cause I have no friends and hang out with them. I'm talking to you? Oh, you have to hate me now. I'm walking around in a circle? You have to hate me right here and now. What have I ever done? Do I look weird, am I a nerd or a dork because I have a 4.0 GPA, does my breath smell funny, do I wear too much black yet love Disney and that's going to be a problem for you? Eh, I dunno.
My problem right now is not in real life. I don't go to public school. I'm homeschooled. It's, actually, online. On a certain section in a certain forum on a certain site... people hate me because I'm, obviously, a hyper, obnoxious little brat who doesn't deserve to be a mod. But, that's it: I obviously don't deserve to be a mod because I'm hyper and put my age at '6' and refuse to change it because it's unique and I don't want to grow up, yet I care more about that forum more than I can put into words. But, that's not the point.
Here's my problem: people hate me either being hyper or for making mistakes because I was new and hadn't had a big responsibility like this before when I first became mod, but most likely the former. I just want people to understand me a little bit before so I can help them out so that they can have fun. I can't do that without someone throwing out an opinion and everybody suddenly saying "ZOMG RENA YOU SUCK". So, how do I get people to understand me a bit better so I can help them... have fun? I would like them to understand me, a lot better than they do right now. They don't even know me, and they judge me by that little number that says '6' as my age; and, FYI... I won't be changing that number anytime soon. *likes the low age* :d
...Help? Please? I would REALLY like to end my weekly sessions of crying now. :\